I Miss My Bapak

Bapak has peacefully pulang menemui Allah on 18 February 2011. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas Arwah Bapak. Gambar diatas diambil kalau tak silap sehari sebelum Hari Raya Puasa tahun lepas. Dan tahun ini, aku akan beraya tanpa Bapak disisi. For the first time after 38 years of life I wont be able to salam and peluk Bapak di pagi Raya.

Bapak has suddenly fell very ill 2 weeks before he passed away. All of a sudden he got a non-stop hiccups for a few days. Mak who felt sad and pity of him, called a doctor to our house. The doctor suggested for Bapak to have a rest by giving him a pill to stop the hiccups. Actually the pill has made him felt sleepy. He asked for some food.. and while mak is feeding him, he suddenly felt asleep with food still in his mouth. Mak has to cleaned him up and let him sleep.

But after nearly 12 hours, he still did not wake up. Abang who was worried of him called an ambulance to bring him to the hospital.

And start from that moment he was hospitalised for 2 weeks in Hospital Teluk Intan. Once in a while I will make a day trip to balik kampung to visit him. And every time I have to return to KL, my tears will run down slowly. I try not to it to him or Mak.

The last trip I visited him was 4 days before he passed away. He hold my hands and tell me.."Na, bawak bapak dengan mak balik. Bapak dah tak sakit... Panggil doctor. Bapak nak balik.." Aku cuba pujuk dia. Aku kata Bapak kena duduk hospital.. Bapak belum sihat.

Then he continued.."Dah tinggalkan mak duit teksi? Nanti senang Bapak nak balik..."

He really wants to go home..!! But I cant...

And now I only can bring all his memories back home. Hajat dia nak meninggal dirumah tak kesampaian... He passed away after undrwent an operation to his swollen feet..

Bapak.. Ina..mak, kakak dan abang akan sentiasa merindui kehadiran BAPAK!!

We miss u!

My Wish On My Birthday

Pagi2 masuk.. dah ada org nyanyikan happy birthday song for me. How I'm glad I had such a good and nice fren around me. What more can I wish than having real frens around kan!

Me and my Bday Cake! Even it's only a small cahe.. it brings lots of meaning to me...

I will be on a half day leave today.. rayau rayau.. makan makan... then malam ada dinner dengan hubby. Nothing much actually...

But I really thanked Allah for giving me another year to enjoy my life with my loved ones. And thank you mak & arwah bapak for bringing me up, give me good education and teach me all sorts of beautiful things in the world. I could never repay you for all these....

And to hubby.. thank you for being an understanding husband in our 13 years of luvly marriage. I love you so much!

And to my one and only son.. Rizq Aqeef.. mummy has no better words to describe how lucky I am to have you in my life. you are the most precious gift Allah has given mummy and daddy! We luv you so much sayang!

And for myself.. I will try harder to be a good daughter, wife, mummy, fren and Muslim etc.. Insyaallah...

Bye Bye Tummy

It's been ages since I last updated my blog. This is the bahana lah when we are so into FB.. hahaha.. Talking about myself lah nie. And I've lost my skill in writing dah nie. Do not know how to start and where to start....and what to start..

Ermm.. lets see. I will start today to blog about myself. A little bit of an update.

Gemuk... I think if not every.. most woman will hate to be fat kan. Mee too. Even hubby tak pernah komplen, tapi atas kesedaran diri sendiri, I think I need to do something about myself. Dengan ketinggian 5 kaki 2 inci dan berat badan 55kg.. that will make me fall dalam kategori gemuk bantut.. as some guys in my office luv to mengutuk... hehehe.. But I think I am not that bad though..

Sebagai permulaan... I started with a low carb diet. Not that strict but I tried my best to avoid carb i.e. nasi, mee, roti etc. It has been 2 weeks that I am without nasi. But I can't escape bread becoz that is my favourite. Sambil-sambil tu I am taking some supplement which can help me to reduce a bit faster. This is a supplement yang BUKAN the "buang-buang isi perut" tu tau. This supplement will just help you not to feel hungry very fast.

After 2 weeks of taking the supplement and live without nasi (huhuhu), my tummy almost gone! serious ni tau! Even my weight tak banyak changes, but you will definitely see changes on my tummy. And for me it's something that I have been trying for so long, but only now I can see the difference!

A big clap for myself....!!