I Miss My Bapak

Bapak has peacefully pulang menemui Allah on 18 February 2011. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas Arwah Bapak. Gambar diatas diambil kalau tak silap sehari sebelum Hari Raya Puasa tahun lepas. Dan tahun ini, aku akan beraya tanpa Bapak disisi. For the first time after 38 years of life I wont be able to salam and peluk Bapak di pagi Raya.

Bapak has suddenly fell very ill 2 weeks before he passed away. All of a sudden he got a non-stop hiccups for a few days. Mak who felt sad and pity of him, called a doctor to our house. The doctor suggested for Bapak to have a rest by giving him a pill to stop the hiccups. Actually the pill has made him felt sleepy. He asked for some food.. and while mak is feeding him, he suddenly felt asleep with food still in his mouth. Mak has to cleaned him up and let him sleep.

But after nearly 12 hours, he still did not wake up. Abang who was worried of him called an ambulance to bring him to the hospital.

And start from that moment he was hospitalised for 2 weeks in Hospital Teluk Intan. Once in a while I will make a day trip to balik kampung to visit him. And every time I have to return to KL, my tears will run down slowly. I try not to it to him or Mak.

The last trip I visited him was 4 days before he passed away. He hold my hands and tell me.."Na, bawak bapak dengan mak balik. Bapak dah tak sakit... Panggil doctor. Bapak nak balik.." Aku cuba pujuk dia. Aku kata Bapak kena duduk hospital.. Bapak belum sihat.

Then he continued.."Dah tinggalkan mak duit teksi? Nanti senang Bapak nak balik..."

He really wants to go home..!! But I cant...

And now I only can bring all his memories back home. Hajat dia nak meninggal dirumah tak kesampaian... He passed away after undrwent an operation to his swollen feet..

Bapak.. Ina..mak, kakak dan abang akan sentiasa merindui kehadiran BAPAK!!

We miss u!